I don't wanna.

I don't think i can leave this place yet. Last night i thought about how much i would miss him because i know i wouldn't be able to go visit him whenever i had the time. I cried... like sobbed. I need to know more things for me to actually decide is i want to leave or not. I know he had feelings for me last year even though he never actually said so but i always got these little hints, and from what happened when i went to see him the other week he still does. I screwed up last time, and i don't want to do that again. I feel like i might actually have a chance this time and i don't want to blow it. I really hope i haven't screwed up already. I love him so much that it scares me, but i know that i rather have him around than me give up. I just don't know if he's ever going to tell me how he really feels.