Welllllllllllllll

I'm pretty happy lately, like... yea not everything is perfect, but it's not supposed to be. right now, things are going alot better than how i thought they would be. Yea, i'm still dealing with people and i'm still confused about certain ones and their intentions but i'm good. I don't need anything, anyone to be happy. I just want to live, not be held back.

I'll settle when i'm well and ready.

We see through your blindfolds.

I'm way too excited for tiffany to come back this weekend. I have so much crap i wanna do 'cause i feel like i've been punished and locked in a cage i call my house for the past few weeks. I wanna watch movies and talk about stupid people and then listen to angry violent music so we feel like stabbing people but not really. Anyway, lately i've really been itching to go up to jersey and see some people, apologize to one[we'll go into detail about that another time], go see the beach and the boardwalk and just wander around in the greatness. The people there i couldn't care less about, most of them are dick heads anyway so they're my least concern. The only people there who are worth seeing would be my brother, maybe running into a few people i used to see all the time and my neighbor tim. Tim is a decent guy, he was technically my first friend i ever had. I met him when i was about 7 maybe 6, i can't quite remember exactly. But, since he lived diagonally across the street from my house we had the same bus stop for a few years and i saw him ALL the time. We didn't talk much after he left elementary school since he's a few years older then i am. When i started high school he was a senior and at times, not often, i would see him and say hey or wave. After i moved is when i started talking to him online and such and alot more often within the past year or so. So yea, i just wanna see everything there because there isn't shit like it here and it's ridiculous. The state just sucks, and most of the people are fucking idiotic. I mean, some of the people i've met here are pretty great and a few have helped me out alot and have been there for me and gave me great advice that made me feel better about shitty situations, a very few who i cherish knowing. I hate this state, but i love the people who helped me here, i don't want to leave them. If i could, i would pack up all my friends and travel to jersey but that would never happen seeing that some of them don't get along with each other. Why can't people just try to get along...? Just try. That's what i do, i've had shitty situations with some people but i forgive them usually and just let it pass because i want them to be around and i want to be there for them as well. Ofcourse, there's a limit to everything and i don't think you should forgive people when they've knocked you down more than a few times... i have and it ends up being a cycle. But, just try to make peace with them... think about how much you had fun with them and think about if you really care about them and if the answer is yes then think about this: they won't be around forever. You can't live your life hating people because they hurt your feelings once or they were being immature or acted like an asshole about one situation or because they freaked out when they didn't know how to handle something the way you wanted them to. Think about when they've been hurt and when you've hurt people, because everyone has been hurt and everyone has hurt someone. Think about how great it would be to resolve the situation instead of ending it with rage and cursing or yelling because everyone in their head, really wants it resolved, you just gotta let the person know that's what you want too.

Anyway! I think i'm gonna polish my nails in a bit and then sit around then sleep. Who knows anymore.

yay.

You're a dirty dickface.

:p